Saturday, April 28, 2018

I'm Back.......

I am starting all over and I decided that starting over meant starting a new blog.  So figured I would start with the obligatory introduction post.

Who am I and who was I?

A few years back I started a blog called The Ever Shrinking Geek.   I started it to document my life as a constantly improving dork.  I kept up with it and the lifestyle for quite a while but as often happens things go wrong and life happens. My father died, my brother took his life and my relationship became strained.  It became too much for me to manage.  

Now, here I am starting all over as a 34 year old woman, living alone.  I have gained some weight back and picked up a nasty habit of binge eating to handle emotional stress.  Never the less here I am putting one foot in front of the other and trying to share it so we all know we are never truly alone.

How am I starting this journey?

I am starting by throwing away my calorie counter.  It has caused me nothing but grief and makes me scared to eat.  Instead I am trying something new, kind of a combination intuitive eating and paleo type of lifestyle.  I am going to eat when I am hungry and I am going to eat food I enjoy.  I am however going to avoid foods that are not good for you.  No more chocolate cake or other junk food. I am also going to remove breads and pasta from my general diet.  I am also going to take time out of my week to do yoga and walk several times a week.

Why start this whole blog thing over?

I am always looking for people who are similar to me, going through things like I am.  Finding people who are willing to say "Hey, I am struggling with being who I want to be" or say "I am depressed and I managed to at least get out of bed".  I hope to update this blog every Wednesday.  I will have links to my twitter and tumblr so you can see me in other places too.  Someday I make make a Facebook page.

One more thing...

You will start to notice a change in my writing as time goes on, or rather a change in topics.  I will start talking more about mental health and stability.  In my past I ignored my own mental health which is in part why I am starting over.  I have been diagnosed as having Bipolar 2, which means I never go full mania but I sure go full depressive.  I am going to try and mold my future self into one that works on both the mental and physical.  I realized that with all the things going on in my life I used the fitness and obsessive food control was actually repressing my emotions.

I hope this makes some sense and I hope you will join me on this journey to becoming myself.  

1 comment:

  1. Glad to see you’re back blogging! We miss you and love you!! Best of luck! Keep putting that one foot in front of the other, and try to remember sometimes it’s one step forward and tow steps back, just keep stepping forward sweetie!!